hello xbhpians,

1st of all im so glad i made the members list.
my dilemma is somewhat along similar lines of "Is duke 390 suitable for me?" but i posted newly bcz i got a weird plan which needs expert opinion and also im super excited about the new power to be able to post my opinion on this fabulous site.
so 1st i would like to give a brief insight into my biking story.
i must also clear that this is my 1st online post on any motorcycle website so there is definite chance for multiple noob erroers...... point out gently . in the past i only used to read and never bothered to register and join in on the discussions bcz of my very rookie status. i even have difficulty in understanding a lot of jargon going on in various threads and websites. i have entered into the realm of motorbiking pretty late ( my mid twenty's). used to ride gearless scooters all those years before, Always - In - A - Straight - Line.
i got my 1st and only bike:- pulsar 135ls 2yr back and have done about 17000kms on it. though i rode splendors and pulsars and karizmas in college but very occasionally.... all i can remember out of those rides is the feeling of Fear mixed with Adrenaline and the Wind blast. i usually ride cool but every time i see a bike race past me or cutting traffic like "roadrash" i cant help but fantasize about owning a more interesting companion and getting better riding it. i never try imitating that rider bcz frankly i dont possess those skills and my ride doesnt gives me that level of confidence in terms of control and braking etc.....and im also 5.6ft that means only 1 foot plant allowed !!
ever since the release of duke200 i started saving up for it but got distracted and never bought it now that we have D390 at 2L and with all the superb reviews n praise i just have to upgrade but at the same time im also scared bcz its a big jump from 135cc to 390cc.(im also considering the green goblin 300 but the Nakedness really appeals to me )
im also scared bcz a friend who had a similar dream and got a good deal on a ninja250 crashed in the 1st month of purchase, though survived with major limb fractures.
what im thinking is that i cant just take a short test ride and know everything about the bike bcz frankly speaking whenever im on someone else's ride im very concious of dropping n damaging it and also i cant keep buying my way upto say fireblade or hayabusa. so i thought of the "bike rentals".
can i just rent a bike say pulsar 180 for a week and then moving on to karizma - duke 200 - cbr 250 and then book my duke 390 ?
would i be ready for it then?
at present my riding involves city traffic + highway weekend thrills. i dont cut close corners and try to keep the meandering manoevers at bay bcz i still cant trust the poor front discs n abysmal rear braking. as i crashed a couple of times when i applied front discs while turning but i also believe a superior machine would definitely improve my riding skills and alleviate my fear factor other than providing the speed thrill??
though i have a lot more to add but the post is getting lengthy. before i conclude i would also add that presently i dont have protective gear other than a good helmet and athletic built.
so what im asking is:-

a] should i go with my idea of bike rentals and try out various indian bikes under 250cc. taking time and getting them on highways and 1day trips and thus getting used to higher powerbands.

b] head on buy D390\N300 and praying to speed gods to keep me sane n responsible n fearfull.

c] buy cbr250\duke200 and convincing myself that this IS what's best for me and forget about bigger speed demons for the next say 3-5 yrs. bcz im not that kind of person who keeps changing rides efficiently....... once i buy it its most probably gonna be around for as long as lightning strucks down or i give it away for less.

d] (if possible) modify my P135 COMPLETELY. and have superior performance. i can shell out 1L for this if the returns are acceptable.

i know much of it might sound crazy or downright stupid but as i said im new n excited n got some green saved up for the sole purpose of biking pleasure. and i had been denied and kept AWAY from motorcycles all those formative years by strict n concerned parents. so im painfully excited for everything that a teenager wants to achieve on a bike but at the same time having a lot of fear n insight of what awaits me if it all goes south.....

So any Expert opinion for fellow rider before its too late and i ram into you !!